Word of the Day:水晶玉

I don't know if other humans experience, but sometimes communication so odd that it is sort of ineffable. Like, magic exists but it is also sort of shit too.

I talked to Jahon again. Again, we weren't able to talk properly. I mean he showed off his ability to do an American accent for a split second which sort of impressed me, hearing what he would sound like if he were a native English speaker... Maybe he is a native speaker and the Russian accent was all shit before, I have no clue. The crazy thing about me is that I accept all case scenarios all at once.

I don't know what the point of talking to a Djinn is. I know that's what he is, it makes too much sense. But to continue with him is to continue into the path of fire and ash.

I think he ate my dreams last night, which is fair. Or perhaps it was Drew. I mean, before he talked to me, he made some sort of pact with Vespera Luna. He has a lot of spiritual protection, but we are all mortal at the end of the day. I don't think I had the strength to see into the ether that way last night.

He had a black aura, Drew did, and I guess we can summon blue cars together. Or I am throwing him off whatever he's supposed actually supposed to be doing.

Kankokujin ga haittesimatte.

Bruh, that's racist.. I will let that go though. Kamsahamnida.

I am surprised by the greedy thoughts that flashed through my mind. I felt as if I possessed some sort of power over someone. I actually don't remember the narrative of my story any longer, these are glimpses into the fractals of being, like a crystal shard. I am wanting to commune with him in a way, even though I feel he is a bringer of death...He took something from me, maybe a sense of innocence.. Maybe Sabina had a point with the death instinct or what not.. Or is that just a Russian thing?

I am blocked again but I found a work around for it. But tomorrow will be more difficult I feel. Or rather, it is more kind of a blow to the ego but it would be nice to get my tasks completed. I feel I technically forfeited today. Tomorrow will be a bit harder, I can't deny that buuuut I am petty good in this moment for at least 2 minutes.

After eating my nerves are a bit strained from the phone calls, I am sort of thinking of just doing the cold call thing for like an hour or so and then doing what I got to do.

My pomodoros are. I wouldn't say going bad but just like, it needs a revision. I mean, I am sort of investing back into my company rather than profiting at this point but I am getting charged so, it is good. I have no idea where my sock went so, it is making this, should I just leave without socks or should I try finding the sock somewhere in the living room?

I didn't edit this story at all, but I don't recall this day at all. I just added pictures and changed the title.

I am feeling very mentally well but my body is achy. I sort of want to take a shower but I also think it will make me too comfortable and I do plan on leaving for a second time today.

I got some errands done so that is good.