Word of the Day:覚醒

I was glad I could make him laugh. I was hesitant to get up on stage and join him, but I could tell he was at least 5 drinks in, and even though he was holding it in very well, he was slurring his words a little bit.

I know he was just blowing off some steam, it must be stressful living in an inn. He was talking to a Vietnamese dude and I wasn't sure how the conversation was going because they were talking about a typhoon that is coming tomorrow. Just realizing that as I am writing now is kind of making me want to cry because I will overthink the fucking global climate situation. And you know what Hikaru? You can go fuck that Romanian girl, I don't give a shit. You and your bedazzled face.

I don't even know what the fuck he was wanting with me, saying I was Japanese... Tsucchi... Maybe he was a djinn... he spoke to me through dreams.... I miss my audible account.

I just started writing in this story right now, all the above was written longer ago since I am trying to sort of eliminate all my drafts by submmitting them.

I rested a lot today and while it did feel good on my body, my mind is still very annoyed and dismayed.

I was talking to an ai bot to vent my feelings but it feels sort of pointless.

I think I need to take some medicine for my headache though as resting all day didn't help with that at all.

I pray every night that the people of this town die. My only comfort is knowing that every time my timer goes off, some one does.

But then I am at odds with it since, it means I also wasn't productive enough that day for it to have gone off.

Also unfortunately since I slept most of today a lot of the phone calls and such can't be done. Also any errand I should've ran, I didn't so.. I can hope that some places are open tomorrow but I doubt they will be.

I asked if I should prepare to meet someone, and both my mother and father said not to bother.

That makes sense.

I hate my circumstances right now. I am literally condemned to just rot here.

I am tired of being clever and having many different back up plans. I want to leave.

I think the only benefit of being how I am now is that the hacker isn't bothering me anymore. I am sure they are observing me but they know not to mess with me. Also the algorithm isn't messing up my shit anymore.

I got banned from Hinge, Tinder, an Reddit. Which I find funny. I am completely fine with not using those apps as I was just using them for cold calling. But unlike the dating apps, Reddit isn't letting me delete my account which is sort of pissing me off.

Well, regardless of if I am in a good mood or bad mood, I have only my TODOs and Paper Projects to work on so, I just have to see what I can do and add time accordingly.

Organize shelves. Hmm.. that actually might be a good thing to do right now but it is sort of pitch black.

Face Mask. I guess that would involved cleaning the bathroom. It would be more light in there.

I am 192 lbs. I didn't really gain anymore weight but I wonder if I should do Healthy Wage right now.. that is the next Paper Project after Vocal.