Word of the Day: 我儘

Mm, I have been a bit snappy to some people but I feel like it is rude when they question me offering my skills for money. I mean, you're questioning someone's ability to earn money? I am supposed to do it for free for you? Who is the selfish one here? I don't really owe you anything if you're going to act like that. As long as you're not paying me for my time, I am allowed to leave the conversation or not tell you anything.

It is quite annoying but I can't do anything about it. Crying of spilt milk is not worth it.

Speaking of crying, the dogs are just yelping and barking at nothing and fighting each other again. I mean, I don't know. They aren't like not fighting seriously so I am just leaving them alone.

My energy is getting low though. It is almost 1 pm so I thought maybe I should try to make some food or drink water. I sort of underestimated the power of water to give me energy, sometimes that is more of what I need than anything.

It is so funny that I keep losing weight after quitting the gym. I mean, I am happy, you know? At least something is going well right now.

I also can look forward to getting paid on the 24th so, I will have some money or at least get my phone back by then, but I will still need the funds to get into the apartment. I guess I have to be fine with however this ends up. I am still hoping for the best but it is quite difficult. I think I can do it though, I just really have to keep it up.

I am going to take a little break after this post just to lay down for a bit. I feel grimey and like I need a shower but I feel like that would waste time, haha.

My mom invited me to dinner at my grandma's house, but I don't know if that's really worth it. I mean I know I was all angry and bitter last week about my family but, I have just reconciled that I have to stay as far away from them as I can. They want to help me move and such like that but I am seriously fine with just moving in with a sleeping bag to avoid spending more than necessary time with them.

Ah, I am so tired right now. I noticed I only got this way once my mom got home. Bleh. I need to remind myself to be patient. I think a 30-1 hr nap might be beneficial to me right now. Maybe I should sort of treat it like sleep and practice some good sleep hygiene and brush my teeth and take a shower or what not.

Im a little irritated but I think also it has to do with not getting the nap I was needing. I'm annoyed also with my situation. I'll admit it, I'm human.

I'm listening to Tookie now and she's giving pretty good advice but it doesn't change the situation. Meh, I think I need to just get my nap in somehow and return to the cold calling. This skinwalker is like crying all the time and I can't concentrate.

I talked to some people on Hellotalk so it happened to be calming. My dad's friend contacting me again sort.

This was an old post I am reviving. Above this line was written at least like 4 years ago.

Makes you wonder what has changed?