Anxiety

People always say to me “anxiety is a state of mind”,

But I have proof of otherwise,

Because to relaxation I have always been blind,

Anxiety isn’t just the mind,

Your body is a factory,

And anxiety is the owner of mine,

Always twisting the gears inside of me,

Anxiety gives me feelings,

From my stomach to my toes,

Watching the spinning in the ceiling,

My body still, steady, and froze,

Anxiety is when I over overthink,

My head begins to ache,

And my heart begins to sink,

All I can do is hyperventilate,

Anxiety is butterflies in my stomach,

The good kind or the bad, slow or fast,

Anxiety is biting my fingernails,

Biting the skin off my lips while working in class,

Anxiety is my vision,

Getting blurrier by the second,

The fear of a bad decision,

A terrible mistake when we’re texting,

Anxiety comes in all forms,

All over you might find,

For example when I’m crying,

And all the different worries fill my mind,

It can be big or small,

Complex or simple,

Being scared to fall,

Or an almost unnoticeable pimple,

Anxiety is the words I don’t say,

The bouncing up and down of my leg,

It causes me all of this pain,

My heart rate skyrocketing on the reg,

Anxiety is the voice I use when speaking in public,

The random noise when you’re home alone,

Anxiety is the crying in the bathroom,

Then coming back and saying nothing’s wrong,

Anxiety isn’t just a state of mind,

Anxiety is a feeling in my body,

Anxiety is all of the squiggly red lines,

The only thing that my brain can clearly see,

Anxiety is my heart dropping,

It’s my head spinning,

My veins throbbing,

My smile thinning,

Anxiety isn’t just a state of mind,

It’s not just a feeling in your head,

Anxiety is the reason why,

I never want to get out of bed