I grieve for what never happened . I’ve been banished to far off exile. Ejected from society, rejected and evicted. Ostracized and outlawed. To the outskirts of this wasteland. The barren pressures of the outback. Parched and thirsty. Deported and discarded. Tested for omittion. Edited for excommunication. Transported to the edge of fiction. Demented and fabricated. This visionary only sees failure. Hypothetical assumptions. Storybook myths and biblical psalms. Legendary notions and abnormal endeavors. The phantom illusion. The tundra of hallucination. A figment of your imagination. My fairytale of apparitions. The ultimate deception. A fool’s paradise. A see-through specter. This life is fragile. A frail utopia. A disgrace. Vague and pensive. I’m going down the rabbit hole. To where the mad all dwell. I’m late for a very important date. To embrace the darkness. To a wonderland I’ve never known
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Anna Torres
I’m a 39-year old mother and student. I love reading, metal music, and writing. I have begun writing again since 2021
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Nemesis
I have long suffered because of you. If you ever loved me, you wouldn't have expected me to. I repeatedly devoured my sanity to appease you. If you ever loved me, you wouldn't have asked me to. I destroyed my lungs trying to advocate for myself. I lost my voice trying to regain my power. I refuse to serve any meaningless purpose that no longer cripples me. I no longer serve you. I will no longer be undone by you. I decapitated endlessly to appease you. Parts of me went repeatedly missing. There was always something lacking and you couldn't fill that lost void. You're the afterthought that refuses to stay silent. You're a flat surface while I am a glorious mountain. You can no longer defile me but you're still the nemesis from which I flee. My dreams are alive. My ambition has come to life. This was once only imagined. Merely a scenario, a theory not yet in motion. A spineless hypothetical that had soaked up all of my motivation. The possibilities weren't enough to sustain me. I had to explore it all on my own. You are not the default setting anymore. I used to minimize the amount of space I occupied. I will not be consumed by damage I did not create. I will drown the memory of you in the marshes where you baptized me. I will asphyxiate your cursed shadow in the waters I gave birth in. I've let the waves wash away the sins you convinced myself I had committed. I've created new memories in the novice stream. I will not define myself by my victimization by you. I have redefined myself in spite of you. There is nothing left to mourn. There is nothing left to bury. I've gone supernova. I've gone nuclear. Nemesis, I sought vengeance but that was always beneath me. I desired divine retribution but I rather disappoint you instead. I rather defy every negative notion you ever thought about me. The scales have been tipped but I am here to rectify the balance. You might never get what you deserve but that is your misfortune. I am here to avenge myself for all that you took away. I have long suffered but that time has come and gone. You were never the person I begged you to be. This is now ancient history. I am the seeker of glorious futures. I am the corrector of unstable sutures. I will align with steady symmetry. I will traverse the rest of the universe where you'll never be able to find me
By Anna Torres10 days ago in Poets
LEGACY OF PEACE
As a humanitarian and advocate, my mission is to honour and cultivate peace within the world by leading with clarity and personal integrity. I believe that true healing, especially for a woman recovering from sexual assault, is a sacred process that cannot be rushed. By rejecting external pressures and protecting my private life, I ensure my energy remains fully dedicated to my collective purpose. As an Empowerment Coach, Advanced Spiritual Intuitive Empath, Advocate, Author, and Teacher, my divine purpose, focus, and mission, is dedicated to the essential work of global restoration, healing, and unity. My mission is one of sovereign service to all through the act of non-partisanship, as I seek to serve the collective as a humanitarian and advocate to foster healing, spiritual expansion, while seeking peaceful diplomatic measures that extend beyond boundaries, barriers, or lines of division. Within the state of peace, hate cannot preside. I honour my journey as a woman, and as a survivor, by prioritizing an unhurried, pressure-free path to recovery. I choose to maintain firm boundaries within my professional life, to keep my personal life private, so that I may remain a clear and steadfast vessel for peace, ensuring my focus stays entirely on the transformative work I am called to do. Healing the self, and others, enables sovereign leadership, high-level acts of accountability, transparency, integrity, and ethical honour, based in compassionate advocacy, and peace. Dedicated to fostering peace within the world, I do not subscribe to acts of division or polarization, my mission as a humanitarian is rooted in the belief that healing requires time and grace. By maintaining clear boundaries, and a private personal life, I honour my role as a survivor and advocate, ensuring my work remains my primary focus, and my greatest act of love for the collective. My mission is to serve, as a bridge, to facilitate restoration and recovery, for those impacted by abandonment, loss, suffering, and destruction. As a dedicated humanitarian and advocate, I work diligently alongside all levels of government, law enforcement, and global organizations to implement systemic healing. By prioritizing professional clarity and a pressure-free personal life, I ensure my energy remains fully committed to the safety and well-being of the greater community. I am committed to helping individuals navigate the profound challenges of abandonment and loss. My work is a relentless pursuit of peace, involving close collaboration with government agencies, community leaders, and human rights advocates, to create a more resilient society. As a woman and a survivor, I honour the time required for true healing, allowing me to show up with the strength and integrity necessary to advocate for those in need. Dedicated to the collective mission of healing, I work at the intersection of spiritual ascended assistance and humanitarian aid to support those recovering from destruction and loss. I believe that peace within the world begins with protecting the sacred process of recovery. My focus remains entirely on this vital work, ensuring that my role as an advocate is defined by results, depth, and a steadfast commitment to the welfare of all. I have chosen to keep my personal life private so that my energy remains fully dedicated to my collective purpose and the healing work that I am doing. I find that keeping my relationship status off the table, allows the focus to stay where it matters most, on the mission of growth and service that I am building for myself, my clients, and humanity as a whole. My heart is completely poured into my work. I am honouring that by keeping my private life just for me, so I can show up fully for the community. As an Empowerment Coach, advanced healer, humanitarian, and human rights advocate, it is essential that I maintain this focus to honour the healing work I am doing. My commitment to my role, requires a clear and intentional focus. I keep my personal life private to ensure my energy is entirely poured into my collective mission of healing. For me, it is a matter of professional and personal integrity to focus on my calling. This privacy allows me to stay clear and committed to the essential healing work I provide. I deeply honour my journey as a woman, but as a survivor, I know that true healing cannot be rushed. It is essential that I move at my own pace, free from any external pressure, so that I can remain clear and dedicated to my work as a humanitarian. As a woman and an advocate, I believe in the power of patience. Surviving and healing from sexual assault is a journey that requires immense grace, and it is integral that societal pressures such as judgement, stigmatization, ridicule, and ideological false beliefs or the weight of improper rhetoric be removed from a survivor’s recovery process. Healing from trauma is a journey that does not have a timeline. I stand in firm solidarity with survivors, as I am committed to fostering a culture of belief, respect, and trauma-informed support. Maintaining a workplace where survivors feel heard and empowered ensures that safety is a priority beyond a commitment. Supporting survivors ensures they have direct access to confidential resources, legal information, and the space where they can heal on their own terms. Unconditional love is a commitment to the well-being of others that transcends personal preference or circumstance. When we love without conditions, we recognize that every individual is inherently worthy of care and protection. Unconditional love serves as a foundation for universal care, ensuring no one is excluded. The act of staying by someone’s side and supporting them despite turmoil demonstrates the testament of one’s ability to foster support, empathetic care, assistance, and unconditional acceptance. The language of love transcends boundaries and barriers to foster unity on a significant scale. My focus remains on my humanitarian calling, which requires me to be fully present and unhurried in my personal life. Honouring my womanhood means honouring my need for a pressure-free environment. Healing from past trauma is a marathon, not a sprint, and I am prioritizing my peace so I can continue to show up clearly for my collective purpose. My primary commitment and global mission is to honour and cultivate peace within the world. As a humanitarian, I believe that global healing begins with the stillness and clarity we maintain within our own lives. I view my work as an advocate for peace, and that starts with protecting my own inner sanctuary. By maintaining confidentiality, I am able to offer a more authentic and grounded peace to the collective. Honouring peace is not just a goal, it is my daily practice. My dedication to a peaceful world is why I choose to move through my life and my healing with intentionality and grace. As a woman and a survivor, I know that peace is a hard-won treasure. I honour it by keeping my focus on my humanitarian purpose, ensuring my energy is used to build harmony, unity, and peace. Peace is an active, powerful choice rather than a passive state, therefore, unconditional love must always be present to foster diplomatic resolutions, reconciliation, and solutions for the greater whole. I honour peace as a central part of my global mission. I believe that systemic change begins with an intentional heart, therefore, I act with love as my strategic core foundational structure to foster lasting global peace. I believe peace must be afforded to all. My mission as a humanitarian is to translate the frequency of love into actionable peace, ensuring that every collaboration with government and law enforcement serves the greater collective good. By choosing to act with love and patience, I create a sustainable path toward global harmony, honouring the time and grace required for true restoration. To truly foster peace within the world, one must lead with empathy. I am dedicated to acting with a spirit of love to bridge the gaps created by abandonment and loss, turning destruction into reconciliation. Reconciliation enables the power of forgiveness which enhances the shared vision for the future that enables trust, compassion, and justice. The sanctuary we cultivate within translates intentionally on a higher frequency. I believe that every individual is a catalyst of change, capable of turning personal restoration into a collective movement for global peace. By working across sectors from law enforcement to grassroots organizations I recognize all are integral in the mission to heal our communities. True transformation occurs when we embrace our roles as Warriors of the Light, choosing to act with love and patience rather than rushing the sacred process of healing. My work is rooted in the conviction that we are all integral, essential, and sacred. When all honour their sacred sovereign autonomy, inner peace, and internal power, all become sacred guardians, promoting a more harmonious and inclusive world.
By ELISABETH BABARCI about 6 hours ago in Poets
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