Immortal

If I was immortal id jump head first into traffic,

strap dumberlls to my legs and feel how it feels to drown,

id shoot myself repeatedly,

just because I liked the sound.

If i couldn't die,

i would hng myself so i could feel how it feels to choke,

rope around my neck, left me hanging,

gasping to get air in my throat,

just to feel how it feels strangling.

I would jump from buildings because its the closest I could get to flying ,

scraping sky scrapers on my way down,

knowing theres no way in hell im dying.

Id slit my wrists just to feel a little something,

blood pouring down my arms, the results leading to nothing,

ripping my already scarred tissue apart.

id go months without eating,

to make my stomach a little flatter,

I could get sick but i won't die,

so it doesnt really matter.

if i was immortal,

i woulnt use it for evil,

id spend my whole life almost dying,

every new quote unquote life would be an upheaval,

And if i said, 'im not trying to die' id be lying.